I just found out my 13 year old sister tried to overdose and is now in a psychiatric ward. I'm devastated and don't know how to handle it. I feel so sick with worry and I just want to cry.
I sure hope so. I don't want her to go through what I went through. I regret ever telling her about my past. And I can't help but blame myself. If I never told her, maybe she wouldn't get the idea in her head.
Yeah I never feel bad for someone that does harm to themselves in a cry for attention because that just shows them it's okay to do it in the future. Just like how I never understood why people cut themselves.
She's young and doesn't know how to communicate her feelings. I'm not defending her or asking anyone to feel sorry for her. I just don't know how to handle talking to her about it. My mom wants me to talk to her because I went through the same thing, minus the psychiatric ward. I'm thinking she was depressed because of the amount of change that has happened lately way too fast. She hasn't had time to adjust properly. I guess some people cut themselves because the temporary physical pain takes your mind off the emotional pain. It releases some kind of endorphins in your brain, almost like a euphoria, and it becomes sort of an addiction. Thats how it was for me anyway. She just needs to learn positive ways to cope with her problems, for me it was throwing myself into my artwork. Her and I have chemical imbalances in our brain. Depression runs in our family and she and I are the only ones of our generation who have been subjected to it. You don't choose to be depressed. I'm sure some of you would beg to differ, but until you go through it, don't judge. Speaking for myself, it's a challenge everyday to get up in the morning, no matter how many things are going right for me. I have to almost force myself to be happy. I'm ultra sensitive to any harsh comment made to me and I have to work extra hard to brush it off. I suspect that she is the same way. Sorry for being so long winded. /end wall of text.
I too have chronic major depression and have been off of meds since loosing health insurances. 5 1/2 years later and i'm about to go into tower killing mode. As for talking to her: the only wrong way to talk to her is to not talk to her about it. Depression is far worse than 98% of the population can even comprehend. It's one of those things that if you have to discribe it, it wouldn't be understood. Be ready for ignorance to claim it's a character problem or a choice. Because people like to form opinions and beliefs on things there is absolutely no way they'd ever know anything about.
Oh, and I just got 255 pounds of new weights on craigslist, but I just realized they have like 2" holes and all my bars and weights are 1".
Believe me, I know. People like to make fun of things they don't understand. I talked to her tonight and I feel like I got through to her. The group sessions seem to have opened her eyes. She didn't want to talk to anyone but me, because no one else understands it as much as I do. I feel a lot closer to her and it's sad that something so unfortunate took place for that to happen. And LOL Lurker and 950
LOL!!!! How much did that run your wallet? I think when my friend gets tired of the going to the gym, i'd like to get my own home gym, but that probably wont be for a while and the gym will have to suffice for now
The hooker gave the money back. I replaced the broken part of my A/C line, I had to remove my passenger headlight, motor mount, the other side of the A/C line, and then I had to bend the line so it would fit. Apparently 03 Neon and 04 Neon A/C lines are just a little different. Then when I put in the test kit, I found a leak coming from the condenser unit. $300 for a new condenser unit, $95 for a junk yard part. Now I'm going to assemble my new computer.
I want to work out, but I'm too damn hungry. And I know I wont be able to work out after I eat dinner.
Got 2 cars smogged today. Met with the founder of Obscene Magazine - Home today. Great guy. I think we'll be working together in the future.
