I've started cutting my arm again, to deal with the shit I'm going through. I've had some suicidal thoughts recently, but I don't think I could actually go through with it because I care more about how it would affect other people than anything. I need help, and I don't know where to look. I've taken a week and a half off of work, and my boss told me my job would be there when I'm ready to go back. I can't get up the courage to go to a doctor, in fear that they'll put me in a psych ward or something like that. The only person that knows I'm cutting myself is my boss, and now you guys. I haven't told friends or family. I'm falling apart inside, but keeping up appearances on the outside to keep people from knowing. The reason I'm saying this now is because I can't take it anymore and I need help. If anybody can tell me where I should go, then please tell me.